The journey of parenthood has been one of the most rewarding missions I’ve ever assumed! Parenthood is challenging but peaceful, stressful but healing, confusing and logical, heartbreaking and blissful, frustrating and satisfying, demanding and gratifying, surprising yet predictable. Raising Children brings on just about every emotion the human body can possibly feel from elation all the way to distress.
Distress is where my journey has taken me lately. I have gone into survival mode forgetting everything wonderful, peaceful, or blissful. Parenthood has been anything but blissful lately. As I try to start each day on the right foot I tell myself, “Less yelling, more loving”, it never quite turns out that way. I gotten into a rut which has lead me into disaster. My kids no longer listen to my voice, as such my voice tends to get louder and louder which only causes more stress to all parties involved. Next I initiate empty threats which never get carried out. Lastly, guilt followed by remorse for not doing my job.
My job is to love these children and guide them through life, gently forming them into respectable, compassionate, independent adults. Discipline is not something I’ve ever done properly. But how can I discipline my children and not be disciplined myself with a Godly example in their lives? I will be the first to admit that my example has been nothing short of absolutely horrible!
My relationships seems be faulty with a lot of people and my kids tend to carry out the emotions they are exposed to on a daily basis. I get angry, a LOT! I yell and demoralize my husband. I complain and whine about doing the house hold chores. I gossip about EVERYTHING! I am a constant nag in my husband and children’s lives and I intend to change that!! I can’t stand all the negativity and Godlessness in my life. I tired and run down, but not enough to give up!
I had intended to make this letter about the challenges of being a parent and it has taken quite a bit of a turn. I am being to realize that if I want peace in my home I need to make some serious changes with myself first. Changes that only God can oversee and I can initiate. As I make the step to change my life and everyone in my life should and will be affected in a positive way, I only ask that you pray for me and my whole family. Please keep us in your prayers as well as send notes of encouragement, advice, and keep tabs on me! I need other believers to help me keep my eyes on God as I push forward into the life He has chosen for me!
With Love and sincerity,
Elizabeth
Elizabeth
