I feel like we are in early December the way the weather has been going. It's so cold out! I hear some places are even getting snow! I usually really enjoy this time of year, the leaves, the smells, the holidays coming up... I must say, I have not been in a very good mood. The colder weather and time of year has brought back some very painful memories from a year ago and I can't seem to shake them. I do think I'm feeling a lot better than I expected.
After last years events I started reading articles and testimony's of other wives who have gone through the same thing. One thing they all say and are absolutely right about is that surviving an affair is worse than having your husband die. I couldn't agree more, I always said, while he was gone, that it would have been easier if he had died. Dealing with the affair was so extremely hear wrenching and it didn't help to be 2 months prego either.
One thing that catch my attention when reading these articles is that almost all the women whose marriages survived say it took around 2 years for everything to go back to normal and for her to trust her husband again. Not so in my case, although I have God to help and I'm not sure any of these women did. When Chad came home I was so over joyed. It was like falling in love again! I immediately glued myself to him and didn't feel the least bit angry at him! An amazing feet which only comes with God's grace! We are still doing really well in our marriage but it's been really hard for me these last couple weeks. For now I'm just going to stick close to God and not let myself lose sight of Him again!
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